new chapter :)

hello annyeong!!!

i think im gonna start blogging again...why??
i think because i have lots of free time nowadays..hihi

so how's life people???
im doing great with amazing people around me, having the best time of my life.

wanna know why???

we've back together and so happy to be with each other.

i should write more some other day. :D

till then, missing my other half so much, who is currently in kk for his long holidays :)

i love u my bebehh!!muahhh muahhh..

till next time guys,
nadia nathilda norim :)

its been too long..

so here i am..blogging after how many months..urrgghh..it feels good though..

at starbucks now..drinking chocolate drinks something2..forgot the name..

no idea what to blog though..

life hv never been this good as for now..been into a small financial problem which i guess evryone will face the same damn thing too..

my housemates was out..so im all alone here in starbucks..dont feel bother anyway..

so i was bored,so i went out to grab some fresh air..

happy new year evryone!!

its been a looonnnnggg time since i last blog about my life..wonder if i can write for long at the moment..hehe


oh well,have been really busy taking a new step in my life..busy taking flight back and forth evry month..tiredddd~~~

till we meet again..daaa~~

just an explanation

is it really hard to give just one explanation to all this mess u'd caused???
 u can do anything u want,but atleast explain the reason behind all of these..

i know,not evrything need a reason..but somehow,there's must be something  happening right now that make things harder for both of us to even trying to solve it together..in the end,we hurt ourselves without even knowing why we hurt ourselves in the first place..

i never even once let u down,but y are u doing dis to me???
u know how hurt it is,and yet u still did it..
u said u're not playing with a girl's heart,and yet u did it..
ur words didnt really go well with ur actions,n do u even realize it???
if u know u gonna hurt me in the end,then y must u make urself fall for us in the 1st place?
y must u make me put my hopes so high,and then u just crush it like it was never there before?
y must we hurt ourselves when all we can do is not to be in this situation in the 1st place?

damn lahh..like freaking b*R$%#@t!!!

why oh why

feeling a bit down lately..but thanx to my beloved ohana and my friends,i made through those down days.. :)

been posting a few MV that i found in youtube..somehow, the songs help me to let my words out in a much more better way..

received good news last week and im so grateful for the news, and i hope i'll be fine with it.. :)

i;ve been cheated,yes..once again,i go through the same damn thing..it makes me think,should i jz give up on it??cz holding on for too long is very tiring,but somehow it gives me hope to hope more..

but i think i should give up..what says u?

im okay..i'll survive.. :')

im okay baby,i'll be fine without u :')

i care..

for once..

for once,this song meant a lot to me..but not anymore :(

broken hearted girl :(

y must i go through all these all over again??? :'(

something about u :)

like seriously???

im so bored!!!OMG..has been spending my time at home most of the time,only go out when i need to..and oh,i went for a short vacation last week to kuching srwk..
actually i went there to send my brother to UiTM Samarahan,he's continuing his study there..sad to know i no longer hv my bro next to me when im driving.. :P

anyway,gtg for now..will cntinue chit-chatting when i hv time to type more..

going out~~

adios amigos my bloggie love~~ :)

a total messed up..

i dunno how should i put this on words..my days have been really disturbing with lots of thoughts in my head..

to realize that i used to be so in love with him,i wonder where do the feelings go..like seriously,where?i end up having doubts on my own feelings,which is a total pissed off when i think about it back..

yes,i promise him my heart,my commitment to our relationship..but to knw that we are now in a situation where we could even barely talking like evryday..not talking at all to be exact..and it makes me wonder,do giving commitment to each other means less communicating will be fine for both of us?..we used to talk on the phone evryday even though jz for a while,but atleast we knw whats going through each others life..but it seems that lately,we dont even talk at all..
i respect him and his determination,and i knw i shouldnt be disturbing him but to knw that i care for him evryday and it makes me thinking of what he is doing,how's his day and etc..but it came back to me,that i shouldnt be acting like he must,or he need to tell me evrything bout his daily life cz im nt even his wife..so fine,put that aside..need to put my mind back on the positive side..
but then again,im wondering..do he even realize that there's someone out there,and that someone is me,is thinking bout him,care bout him,wondering bout his whereabouts???..to be honest,i dont like the feelings of being wondering about him..the feelings tend to mixed up with the feelings of care,missing him,thinking bout him and evrything..and it then turn to negative side,where i think that he might be thinking that i hv no feelings at all,i'll be fine with anything,nothing will disrupt our relationship,and i will be like,"what am i?a mannequin?i dont hv feelings towards anything?" *sigh*
i saw this quotes somewhere online and it mention there that there's 10,080 minutes in 1 week..and im wndering,y he cant even spend few minutes with me?but then it came back to me again,who am i to actually request for such things?im nt even that important in his life..fineee..i end up gave up..

i end up giving up to all my hopes that i hv put too high for me to expect things to be better..from now on,im jz gonna let things to go on their own,and i hope it will be better someday..

i dont know what to think anymore,i think too much that it makes me to have doubts on my own feelings,my mind..

i guess,i jz disappointed on how things didnt turn out well and how i hurt myself too much to accept the facts that once again,i was left alone in a relationship where it suppose to have 2 person..

i pitied myself for being so dumb to be hurt again.. :(

somehow..

sometimes,i dont get why things must happen dat way..cant it happen the other way around??why cant things happen in a much more better way??why must it comes in the most worse scenario and at the same time hurting people's feelings..it feels awful okayy..ermmm

guys???i always wndering bout guys..i didnt really see these things in the girls behaviour cz i knw how they normally act towards their man and their relationship..i was wndering,do guys plays harder when it comes to have the girl of their dream??they will say zillions of good things if they can be with that girl,and once they hv her,*snaps* they'll stop doing so..i mean,once they hv their girl in his arm,dats it..there's no worries of knwing the girl will run away,no need to say good things anymore cz they've already got what they want..

and i dont jz say things all of the sudden..

i feel really awful right now with things around me..

i feel like i was played,and yet in love..

i feel like im nt appreciated,and yet i appreciate the other one..

i feel like im the one who's being stupid,and yet i let myself look dumb..

i feel like im not suppose to be in this situations,and yet i let myself into it..

i feel like im not love by him,and yet i let myself be loved by him..

i jz dont like the feeling of being worried all the time..i hate it..

i dont like the feeling of being neglected by the person i love so much..

i dont like the feeling of knwing he might forgotten bout me..

i dont like how things changed when its not suppose to..

im so cnfused right now..i dont even knw what to think..i feel dumb,i feel miserable..

how i really wish i can vanish for a while..

the mass.. :)

its good friday evryone!!to evry Roman Catholics out there,i wanna wish in advance to all of u,HAPPY BLESSED EASTER DAY!!! :)

so im having my offday today from work..phewwww..thank god..ngeeee..

its the holy week of easter,and all christians are supposed to go for a 4 days straight of masses going on form holy thursday,good friday,easter virgil and easter celebration..

last nite was the holy thursday mass,n i get the chance to go with my beloved ohana..its been a very cold evening..brrrrr...this morning was the station of the cross,and later in the afternoon was the good friday mass..

this year hv been different.. :)

i went to good friday mass with my ohana,but unfortunately we hv to sit separately as our sitting preferences differs from what all of us..BUT..this time im accompanied by someone special..woot woot~~~will keep the name as a secret..ngeeee..we decided to go church together as he didnt go to church for quiet a while and sorry to say,i need a husband who can lead me in my spritual thingy too.. :P

we met there at church,and he look great in his casual attire..awwww..*heart drops*..so we sit together outside,since its hot and we want to sit at a place which is windy..heeee..its was 1hour and a half i guess before the mass,and we talked a lott..how i fell for him once again with his smile and his humor..not forgetting to mention that he do hv a small lips..n damn what dat makes mine?? T.T

teeetttt~~so along the mass,its been a blessed for me to have him by my side,at the church praying together.. :) ..he said he felt like im his fiancee and his wife..awwwww..i felt the same way too..how i wish i can hv him by my side now.. :P ..can we skip the engagement part and the wedding part?? :P as if i can lahh kann.. :P

the cnclusion of my craps today is that im so happy to hv been spending time with him doing what we're supposed to be as a christians.. :)

thank u and hv a pleasant time reading my craps.. :)

finally found my new and hope gonna be my everlasting love.. :)

he's good looking,tall..heeee..but most of all,he's understanding,matured,caring,full of commitment...

cnclusion,he's my all.. ;)

wouldnt bother his past,cz all i knw he's my future..he might be old to some people,but he's my one and only..he might look like a playboy,but he's my man..he might not suit me in some way,but he's my type..he might not be there for me all the time,but i know he loves me with all his heart and so do i..he might not have his all to give me things,but i knw he have his heart for me..he might not have the world for me to live in,but i knw he have his own world for me to be a part of it..he might not be perfect in evryone's eyes,but he is perfectly created for me by God..

i might hurt other people to be with him,but i hope they knw that he's the one for me and nt for them..i might be thinking that im insane to be with him,but i know from the moment he let me in to his heart, i should do the same and i did..i might be jealous and mad with him,but i hope he'll understand that all i want is him to be with me and not with other girls..i might say bad words to him,but i hope he know that im only joking to get his attention..i might do childish things towards him,but i hope he knows that life doesnt hv to be so serious..i might demands things from him,but i hope he'll understands that all i want is his heart for me and only me..

thank god my decision to finally open my heart have been a blessings..couldnt stop telling him how much i love him evryday with all my heart as my days have been great since i met him..

no need to be official to say love,all you need is to be honest,loyal,faithful towards ur loved ones..

Thank you Lord for giving me another chance to feel your undying love for me..

Thank you Lord for letting me to be love by him..

Thank you Lord for sending him into my life..

Thank you Lord for evry amazing moments in my life.. :')

p.s i love u sayang

favourite shampoo~~~ :)

my japan shampoo~~~ASIENCE INNER RICH.. :)

what im trying to do here is sharing my opinion bout types of shampoo that i'd tried before..which is so out of my topics i usually hv here in my blog..heee..dis asience shampoo really took my heart away..awwww..AS IF..heee..well,dis shampoo is made frm asian energy essence like ginseng,pearl protein and aloe extract..it sure moisturise my hair all day long..heeee..and it smells nice too..BUT,in order for u to hv dis shampoo u hv to spend a bit more than a usual price of a shampoo,well maybe because its a brand made in japan..heee..for 220ml shampoo cost about rm14..dang!!!..i know,kinda expensive right??BEAUTY is SURE means SPEND A LIL'BIT MORE..ngeheee..so,dis Asience hv 3type of shampoo,inner rich,nature care and there's another one but i forgot the name,but its in a pink colour bottle which is more for coloured hair.. :)

mine one is Inner Rich which supple the hair from within.. :) ..at first,my mom gave me the trial pack one which is small packaging..my mom got it around 12packaged i guess..1pack can last for about 3times of usage..been using it for about 2weeks n it works really well with my hair..my mom did suggest me to try another one,which i think evryone knw the brand,its the Bawang Shampoo,which the pic on the box is Jackie Chan..when i read all the description bout the shampoo,it attracts me to try it too..but once i smell it,my gudness me..its like made 100% frm ginseng..smells really weird..it makes me feel dizzy..grrrrr..so a BIGGG NO to Bawang shampoo..

i've tried sunsilk yogurt,it smells nice n it nourish my hair but it makes my hair prone to breakage more..huhuhuh..another BIGGG NO on it..i've tried rejoice,it makes my hair feel so dry..another BIGGG NO..Dove hairfall control also a BIGGG NO cz it didnt suit my scalp n i end up with flakes all over my head..huhuhuh..n same goes to Clear Hairfall care shampoo..aigooo..my head sure got a hungover over these shampoos..

i've decided to stick to one type of shampoo at the moment,at the same time i hv to be good to mummy so that she'll buy me another when i running out of it..heeeee..not yet working at the moment,so hv to depend on mummy lahh..i yove u mummy!!*chups chups*heeeee..

till now i guess my blog,im jz sharing what i like bout my shampoo..heeee..daadaa~~~

with lots of bleeding love,

gloria @ girl

its been a while my dearie bloggie~~~

woot woot~~~here i am again,with my blank minded..hv no idea what to write..errrmm..i've been enjoying my time as a passionate driver to my ohana, and at the same time planting lots of lots of grapes..in malay,tanam anggur..which also means,im jobless(menganggur XD)..okay,i knw..im writing noncense here..grrrrrr...

so today i will go back to my beloved college to settle something..no idea what im gonna do there..heee..will be meeting with my frens, sym n jr too..its been a while since we last met as jr is now busy with his career as "receptionist berjaya!" :P ..we suppose to work together,but sumhow things didnt turn out the way we want it to be..i hv medical problems,my february month will be fill with lots of doctors appointment..dang!!!tida suka ini tauuu.. *tsk tsk*

suppose to meet up with my cuzzy too,c carrie..tp dia bilang,dia nokoloboi..overslept..her alarm didnt ring,so she missed her class too..but its sokaaayyy,will get to meet her up again some other time..

my chinchi sakittt..*tsk tsk*..she had wounds on her private thing,no idea how it happened..but im treating her now,my dad bought dis wound spray for pets..hope she'll get better soon..*chups chups*

till then bloggie,need to get ready to go college..*hugs* annyeong hikaseyo!!

with lots of bleeding love,

gloria @ girl

its 2012!!! :)

..hehe..picture took on xmas eve 2011..somehow,my new year 2012 look jg lahh..hehe..yes,i've grown my hair dis long for the past 1year..thank god!! :) ..previously,i hv short hair..did it with someone i'd loved who becomes someone i knew,which i called "my sweet past" :( ..*tsk tsk*

..past is past..lets move on.. :) ..im very grateful to hv my beloved family and dearest friends with me through my ups and downs..and im enjoying my time with them to the fullest!!! :D

..finally!!!..im done with my diploma..woot woot~~~..n i hv no idea wat to do now..grrr..my dad ask me to cntinue my study to degree in ums,which im still cnsidering it till now..cz i hv no passion in study anymore..so i told my dad dat i want to look for a job, and if i can i want to work while studying..which i really hope i can do so..he agreed,but still i dont want to disappoint him..i'll try my best in my UPU application..*wink*

..celebrated my new year with my family of course,hv seafood tomyam steamboat..*drooling*..my aunty luyang sure hv dat kaw2 tomyam recipe in her hand..hehe..somehow,i dont feel excited for this coming new year as i was before,hv no idea y..grrr..at the moment,i've become my family dearest driver..hehe..woke up early in the morning to send my lil sis to skul,after dat around 8am send my parents to work,around 11am++ send my lil bro n cousin to school,around 5pm++ fetch my mum,then my lil bro then my dad then head home..n i spent my time in between by sleeping..cz im tired..hello!!!i drive manual,bukan auto..makanya cepat penat..hehe..

..im preparing my resume now for job application..grr..hv so many things to write on..hv to write good ones,n for sure need to write with honesty..XD..

..got to go for now..take care always my bloggie!! ;) *chups chups*

with lots of bleeding love, :')

gloria @ girl

phew~~~

..phew~~~its raining outside..weeheee~~~atleast,the heat will go away frm here..so its been a busy week for the whole family..i bet evryone's tired of moving things here n there..n yup,we moved to a new house..will keep it low profile of the location..hehe..

..its a new place,new beginning of the past,new people i guess.. :) ..there's been conflict here n there,but managed to settled it down as things already happened,n u cant do anything about it..so how's my day??its been quite good actually..went shopping wit my beloved cuzzy carrie yesterday at 1borneo..its been hectic with us wearing a 3inch wedges walking in dat big shopping mall..haha..bought flat sandals at cotton on,n changed it when we're watching movie twilight:breaking dawn..sorry for the late twilight movie,thank gudness it still in the cinema..hehe..im nt a fan of twilight,didnt watch their first movie,but when i heard bout the romantic wedding etc,i cant help myself but hving the eagerness to watch the movie..n its true,the wedding was romantic..there's been a cut part,which is so 18SGX i guess..grrrr..will wait it to be downloaded i guess..hehe..now im patiently waiting for the 2nd part of the twilight..woot woot!!!yes,a fan of twilight now.. :P

..its xmas time!!!..shopping went wild..spent my money on 2dresses,1blouse,2sandals,n some makeup stuff..for the first time ever here in kk,i went into Mango shop,a.k.a MNG..bought a dress there,it sale!!!well ofcourse it is since its festive season..ngeeee..went to MNG few times when in kl last year,super awkward as im nt the type who likes expensive stuff..but then i realised,even expensive shop do hv sales,n its sure affordable to me.. :P i bet my dad will be mad at me for going there..sorry daddy!!!chups chups 1000 times..ngeee~~~ :P

..till then my bloggie~~~will write more when i really hv the time..still hv so many things to unpack..my clothes are all still in the bags,boxes of my things need to unpack..grrrr..why do i hv so many things??!!!.. :P

with lots of bleeding love,xoxo :')

girl @ gloria